Speak-Free Diaries

The world  is filled of two things.  What we want for ourselves and what others expect us to do with ourselves.  You have people who live for what they want and make no excuses for how they live.  They live by their own on code and do what they want/ what their will allows them to.  They are at their happiest, it may no be status quo but they are living by their code.  Society tells us through main stream media that we must have certain things by a certain age in order to be on the right track.  That is what the deem “successful”, that is why so many people are burnt out  at a young age or not happy becacause what socitey wants isnt what fullfills them.

There comes a certain point in everbody’s life when we must make a decesion.  Whether to follow what fullfills you or do what other’s expect.  Not following your own expecations is a postive disaster for a distress.  There will be mountains of pressure to “do the right thing”  you must be strong enough to follow your own aspirations, goals, dreams etc…

You are now at a crosswords life and what others expect how you shoukd live life. 
If you don’t remeber anything remeber this when you look into the mirror do you see yourself or or the person that other people expect you to be?

Respectfully Your,

Alexis J

For many years I have heard the phrase you never known…. You never knows whats coming around the corner. you never know when and where you will meet your future spouse… for good things and bad.  Today was my you never know moment that I must share….

Today I went to the grocery store, it was like any other day to me.  I had a budget of $80.00 but as I was going along I have seemed to have lost track of my money.  AllI was buying was meat and odds and ends.  I get to the cash register and I told the cashier if it is over eighty dollars then never mind.  Well it was $83 and some change.  I still had 2 whole chickens and some sausage in my cart left.  I asked the cashier where would like me to put these since I can’t a.k.a ( afford) them?  As soon as he was about to answer me the woman behind me said.  Don’t worry about just pay for what you have and put the rest of her order on mine and I will pay for it.  I stood there just as shocked as the cashier.  I said no no it’s okay.. She no IT’S OKAY… She said every now and then I do good deeds.  She said when I bless others I’m blessed in return.  My mouth just stood open and so I let her do it.  I was so speechless I couldn’t even think straight enough to pay for what I did have.

I thanked her probably too many times. She said okay and have a blessed day.  Granted that meat probably would have cost me an extra 25-30 bucks.  I have never felt so grateful in my entire life.  You never know who you are standing next to and what they can do for you.  You never known when and where your next blessing will be and where.  It may be a small as paying for a couple of items of meat from a complete stranger. 

You never know when God will place a blessing in your face in order for you to gain some real perspective in life.  This has made me think what have I done to make someone’s day.  Better yet a complete stranger how have contributed to what God aspects of me. I’ve been blessed and at the same time a very grateful lesson.  I have been caught up in myself lately but what have I done that has been selfless and expect nothing in return?

I encourage you to truly look deep inside yourself and be grateful for one.

Two how can you truly pass the favor of being grateful for what you have?

Respectfully Yours,

Alexis J

I didn’t Need to see you to see you love.
I didn’t need to hear love to listen to your lovely words.
I didn’t need to feel your touch to feel your love around me.
I didn’t need the materials to know your love was real.

You gave me your eyes of humbleness to see your love.
You gave me signs that made me hear your love.
You have me your heart to feel your love.
You gave exactly what I needed your love with strings attached..

Respectfully yours,
Alexis J

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